Deep In Down.... T_T

Have u ever so deep in down...??
I do... right now...
in a whole month of November 2008 till now... T_T

I don't know what have to write in here...
but the rant most like this....
I really feel so deep in down now..... *cries*

OMG….!!Perasaan gue campur aduk akhir2 ini.

Gak berasa udh 1 bulan… >_<

Banyak banget pertanyaan di otak & mixed feeling di hati!!

Duh…..!! gue capek ma semua ini………

Bagaimana ya utk mengakhiri perasaan & pikiran ga enak selama ini….

Berharap happy ending….

Tapi kalopun gak yaa… emang udh takdir

Tuhan… tolong beri petunjuk dan yg terbaik di jalan-Mu…

Sampai kapan ya keadaan dan perasaan seperti ini berakhir...?

I wanna be Happy....!! Happy feeling... Happy Life...

LEBARAN...

Akhirnyaaa... setelah sekian lama hiatus dari blog, ada juga mood untuk posting lagi :-p
Malesnya gini nih.. kalo punya blog, keseringan ditinggalin nya daripada di entry hehehe... *kebiasaan buruk!!* --> jangan diulangi lagi ya Ndah!! --ngangguk-ngangguk-- :-)

Yattaaa....!!!
Akhirnyaaa.. Lebaran lagi...
Akhirnya... setelah sebulan berpuasa.. sebulan beribadah lebih serius dari bulan2 lainnya.. dan katanya pahalanya juga double-double.. Semoga mendapat karomah-Nya. Amiiiiiiinn....

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Puasa kali ini, gue bolong 6 hari.. hiksss...
tapi namanya juga wanita, yaahh... wajarlah...
Gue berharap bisa sholat Ied besok! tapi ternyata.. setelah magrib tadi "dapet" lagi huhuhu... Batal deh niat pake baju baru utk sholat besok :-(
padahal udh nyiap2in baju & mukena buat sholat pagi2...

Lebaran kali ini, kantor cukup baik
ngasi waktu liburan yg ber-keprimanusiaan & ber-kepriagamaan :-)
Senin-Jumat sih lembur terus.. seperti biasa, akhir bulan... Alhamdulillah juga ta'jil disediakan berdasarkan company, jadi lebih "nendang" daripada biasanya.
Akhirnya, hari Jumat terakhir dibulan Sept harus lembur sampe jam 1 pagi!! Sampe rumah Jam 1/2 pagi, duh... berasa dikit lagi harus bangun saur kan? Yang ada teller banget selama hari Sabtu... bangun-tidur-sholat-tidur-bangun-nonton-tidur lagi... gitu aja kerja seharian!! hahaha... akhirnya nyampe magrib juga. Baru deh berasa segeran LOL berat banget emang.. kalo puasa tapi harus lembur sampe pagi gitu...
Oiya, hari Senin belanja!! hehehe.. cuma ke Matahari deket rumah sih.. dan cuma dapet 3 baju, itupun buat kerja niatnya! bukan buat lebaran! tapi ya ampunnn... berasa rameeeeee... banget! crowded bgt sih... perasaan orang2 seharusnya udh pada mudik dong? Jakarta harusnya udh rada sepi dong? ternyata ruammeeee.. bgt!! dan setelah pulang kerumah baca koran, baru ngeh!! hari itu Matahari dept store emang lagi diskon all item cuma 1 hari! LOL pantesss... gue yg salah waktu... apa rejeki juga yah.. jadi dapet diskonan. Mayan.. Alhamdu...lillahh.... :-)

Yaudah, besok dah lebaran yah... sampe detik ini gue belom kirim2 ucapan lebaran by sms nih ke temen2. Bingung soalnyaaa.. apa ya kalimat yg enak dibaca tapi bisa dikenang?? hmmm... Besok aja deh setelah sholat Ied baru kirim2an. Makasih ya temen2 semua yg udah ngucapin duluan ke aku... by sms or by phone or by LJ. Thanx a lot and I love You All...


Minal Aidin Walfaidin...
Maaf Lahir Bathin ^__^









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Precious One - by: KAT-TUN

Cuma mo posting transletan lirik lagu KAT-TUN yg gue suka banget ini aja...
Ampun deh ni lagu bikin pengen nangis... (lagi)
setelah mengamati arti liriknya (caelah...) kok berasa hampir pas ya ma gue saat ini??!!
Duhh... mules jadinyaaa...
gatau harus seneng or apa yah.... *bingung bgt deh pokoknya*
semoga 2 cita-cita gue taun depan bisa menjadi kenyataan.. Amin :-))



PRECIOUS ONE

Time goes by, we have so many meetings and partings
Here I am, relying on someone's kindness, I lost sight of something

What do you think of now, all alone at night as you count the seasons past?

Sometime, sometimes the loneliness overwhelms my heart
I don't want to be all alone, it's so
bittersweet

One day, one day you'll fine your precious one
If you look up at the sky, there's a single shining star

Tell me why, why do we long for love like this?

Ahh... The starry sky is honest, decorating the night with its tender sparkling

Somewhere, somewhere there's my precious only one
You're not all alone anymore, you're not alone

Someday, someday you're fated to meet someone you'll love
Before you realize it, he'll be by your side

Even if a million years go by
We never change, no worries, you'll be alright
I know you'll meet your precious only one
One day you'll find them on this earth, I believe in love
Always

Sometime, sometimes the loneliness overwhelms my heart
I don't want to be all alone, it's so bittersweet

Somewhere, somewhere there's my precious only one
You're not all alone anymore, you're not alone

Someday, someday you're fated to meet someone you'll love
Before you realize it, he'll be by your side
You'll be by his side
You'll meet your only one

Somewhere, somewhere there's my precious only one
You're not all alone anymore, you're not alone

Sometime, sometimes the loneliness overwhelms my heart
I don't want to be all alone, it's so bittersweet



credit to: KAT-TUN Love

Tsukaretaaaaaaa....*

**Tsukareta in Japanese means Capek! 

Seminggu kemarin, berasa capek krn tiap pagi dianter naik motor ma abang or adik gue. Duuuh… berasa capek, macet, bau, dan panas tiap pagi… Gak biasa sih naik motor. Akhirnyaaaaaaa… masuk angina deh hari Kamis, kepala pusing dan punggung sakit ngilu gitu. Yeah.. malem jumat diurut deh ma nyokap! Dan sabtu pagi, pergi outbond dept.Underwriting kantor ke Bogor, berakhir dengan masuk angina lagi yang akhirnya harus dikerok juga malem minggu dan tepar tidur selama 11 jam sampe minggu pagi :-p

Cerita soal Outbond, mayan seru sih… harusnya pada nginep dari Jumat sore pulang kantor, sampe sabtu sore, tapi ternyata ada pilihan boleh ga nginep. Berhubung lagi gak fit, jadi pilih gak ikutan nginep deh.. tapi sabtu pagi-pagi udh harus berangkat dari kantor. Rencana berangkat jam 06.30 dari senayan, akhirnya jadi baru jalan jam 7.30, krn ada yg telat-telat! Huhuu… kenapa sih pd ga bisa tepat waktu?? 
Trus… sampe lah kita rombongan ke-2 ke Bogor, tepatnya di daerah Pancawati, Ciawi Bogor. Jadi villa yg ada tempat buat outbond nya gitu lah.
Dimulai dengan games Ice Breaking yaitu: Buat Lingkaran besar, games berpasangan or bertiga, nyari-nyari pasangan, lari-lari, nempel-nempel, blahblahblah.. biasa seperti games outbond lainnya.
Dilanjutkan dengan Flying Fox. Yay!! Ternyata lokasi tempat kita games itu udah diatas, jadi ga perlu naik tinggi2 dulu… yatta! Ternyata menyengkan.. fying without wings like mmm… Takky or Koichi?? Hahahahaha…
Ini foto narcis persiapan flying fox 
Trus… istirahat bentar, lunch + sholat, dang anti baju… krn games selanjutnya adalah Wet Games di kolam renang. Deuuhh… males banget basah2an, tapi mau ga mau deh harus mendukung team yg udah dibagi-bagi… akhirnya basah kuyup juga jadinya all body tdk termasuk kepala sih.. LOL



Ayoo... Semangat! Semangat!!

Hari ini...
Dari hari minggu udh kepikiran banyak yg harus dilakukan minggu ini
Bangun lebih pagi krn berangkat kerja harus nebeng abang gue yg berangkatnya jam 6 lewat... selama seminggu ini (krn bokap pergi keluar kota) hikss.. bangun subuh2 deh terpaksaaaaa...
Trus... berhubung kartu ATM Mandiri rek.gajian gue ilang ditelan bumi alias entah kemana, jadi deh pagi ini ngurus ke bank mandiri pusat plaza mandiri tempat dimana gue buka rekening nya dulu supaya cepet kelar urusan, jadinya gue perlu ijin dateng siang-an deh ke kantor. Tapi krn dateng kepagian ke plazman, gue naik dulu ke kantor AMFS di lt.29 Kyaaaaaaa... Hisashiburiiiiiii... tu kantor yg udh 1.5th yg lalu gue tinggalkan, udh banyak perubahan, dan sebagian orang2nya juga baru2 gak kenal gitu deh.. hii... waktu cepat sekali berlalu ya.. dan perubahan selalu ada.. cepat sekali!! *Duh... gue masih gini-gini aja...* :-p
Setelah urusan di bank mandiri kelar (yg ternyata cepet kok) gue sempet2in jalan2 bentar keliling lantai basement tu gedung! napak tilas alias nostalgia ma koperasi.. cuma beli susu ultar doang 2 biji bo! hohoho.. trus beli cemilan buat oleh2 temen di kantor LOL, trus ke ATM yang Rp.20ribu-an... *jarang2 menemukan ATM pecahan 20ribu kan sekarang???* huhuhu... what i miss u so much plaza mandiri...!! >_<

Trus..trus.. akhirnya sampe kantor jam 9.15 (lebih cepet dari yg diperkirakan), dan...jadi rada semangat hari ini krn ada janji lunch bareng Adez. Kyaaa... Adez... Hisashiburi neeee... :-) Akhirnya gue ketemuan dan lunch bareng temen ber-empat + Adez! di resto Little Penang, PS :-) jadi rada2 kangen makanan malaysia gara2 salah satu temen baru balik dari training di KL, dan kebetulan ketemuan Adez jugaa... haaaaa... bernostalgia dan cerita2 soal Kuala Lumpur deh :-D
Oiya... kenapa janjian lunch bareng Adez?? krn Adez memang perlu ke kantor gue, utk urus polis nya yg Lapse sejak tahun lalu huhuhu.. lama skali yaaa.. -kasian Adez- --> pesen buat Adez: "Makanya Dez, punya polis AMFS dari dulu aja ngkali ngasitau gue, jadi bisa gue bantu2 lah dikit. paling gak ceki-ceki saldo or harga unitnya" hahahaha...

Trus, pulang setelah magrib... susah yaa...bis nya lama banget deh!! sampe rumah udh jam 8 malem! sementara gue harus urus pengisian aplikasi utk polis Abang & Adik!! Uuuh.. sampe malem pun harus jadi customer service yg baik utk orang2 deket :-p capek yaaaa... kerjaan mulu deh! emang gue dibayar lebih ma kantor?? :-p

Ahh.. ya udh, pokoknya sekarang jadi nyiapin sepatu kets + kaos buat olah raga jalan di Senayan besok ama Ira, Tresya dan... Heppy?? (mungkin) hahaha...
Mumpung lagi ada energi positif dihati & pikiran.. yah.. semangat deh! semangat! Chayo Endah!! Make yourself enjoy your life! ganbarimasu.....!!! ^_^v

RANT RANDOM

Hmmm… mo cerita banyak! Mulai darimana yaaaa…
Ok deh… start with office life! :-p
As u all know…
I’m a single working girl, working for AMFS since Des 2003 until now
Selama 3 th, kantornya di PlazMan, dan sejak Maret 2007 pindah ke Axa Centre Ratu Plaza . Berhubung department dimana gue berada itu cukup besar… maksudnya, karyawan mayan banyak! Sekitar 30 orang! Banyak kan??? Pusing2 deh bos nyaaa… :-p
Kali ini bukan mo ngbahas bos or kerjaan… tapi BATIK! LOL
Secara… BATIK lagi trend sekarang… jadi ada 1 hari Jumat dimana kita bias berpakian bebas (ga seragam), jadi deh janjian pake batik semuanya dan foto-foto 
Hasilnya seperti ini… Indonesia sekali yaaa…?? Tapi lucu juga 




























Trus… pengen ngasi liat meja kerja gue aja.. hihihi… berantakan!!
















Lanjut… di kehidupan weekend! 
Biasanya gathering ma temen-temen fandom Johnny’s (Japanesse artist agency), yg udh berlangsung hamper 5th belakangan hidup gue!! LOL udh lama yaaa.. tapi menyenangkan.. banyak pengalaman, banyak cerita, banyak ketawa, banyak fun, dan banyak foto…  diantara nya seperti ini…

Makan-makan di Kin No Taki Resto, Plangi
































































Suatu malam pulang dari Plaza Indonesia, nyebrang Jembatan Bunderan HI, dan akhirnya foto-foto deh dengan beberapa temen (Dianne, Hepi & Ira) pemandangan yg bagus…!! Jakarta di waktu malam… banyak lampu dan macet :-p Jembatan penyebrangan yg sepi, tapi ternyata banyak juga yg foto-foto pemandangan, termasuk gue dan temen-temen…
So…Jakarta ku tercintaaaa…

















L . O . V . E

I’m in Love… *maybe - not sure!!*

tapi emang udah lama pengen ngumpulin artikel soal CINTA a.k.a LOVE itu sih. Cinta bias berate banyaaaak…. Kalo dikumpulin diseluruh dunia gitu

Dan belakangan ini agak2 terinspirasi ama acara KAT-TUN cartoon yg episode looking for the meaning of AI (Love). Jadi nyari-nyari deh artikel soal cinta…

Baru nemu segini… mungkin dilain waktu akan bertambah…

-----note: yg di bold tulisan nya, itu kalimat CINTA fave gue---- :-)

"One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love." - Sophocles

"Attention is the most basic form of love; through it we bless and are blessed." - John Tarrant

"We love because it's the only true adventure." - Nikki Giovanni

"Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it darts away." - Dorothy Parker

"Love is friendship set on fire." - unknown

"Love is an ideal thing, marriage a real thing." - Goethe

"To be in love is merely to be in a state of perceptual anesthesia." - H.L. Mencken

"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more." - Erica Jong

"Sometimes love is stronger than a man's convictions." - Isaac Bashevis Singer

"Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness." - Oliver Wendell Holmes

"Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it." - Robert Mitchum

"Love stretches your heart and makes you big inside." - Margaret Walker

"Love has no awareness of merit or demerit; it has no scale... Love loves; this is its nature." - Howard Thurman

"Love is like war: Easy to begin but hard to end." - Anonymous

"Love consists in this, that two solitudes protect and touch and greet each other." - Rainer Maria Rilke

"Where love is, no room is too small." - Talmud

"Loves makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place." - Zora Neale Hurston

"Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." - Mark Twain

"Love is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other every day." - Nicholas Sparks

"To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven." - Karen Sunde

"A love song is just a caress set to music." - Sigmund Romberg

"Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit." - Peter Ustinov

"Love is like a violin. The music may stop now and then, but the strings remain forever." - unknown

"Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the problem of human existence." - Erich Fromm

"In the final analysis, love is the only reflection of man's worth." - Bill Wundram, Iowa Quad Cities Times

"Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile." - Elizabeth Browning

"Oh, life is a glorious cycle of song,

A medley of extemporanea;

And love is a thing that can never go wrong;

And I am Marie of Roumania."

- Dorothy Parker

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."
- Woody Allen


"Paradise is always where love dwells." - Jean Paul F. Richter

"If I know what love is, it is because of you." - Herman Hesse

"Once in awhile, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale." - anonymous quotation

"Till I loved I never lived—enough." - Emily Dickenson

"O happy hours when I may once more encircle within these arms the dearest object of my love- when I shall again feel the pressure of that 'aching head' which will delight to recline upon my bosom, when I may again press to my heart which palpitates with the purest affection that loved one who has so long shared its undivided devotion." - Alexander Hamilton Rice

"The most precious possession that ever comes to a man in this world is a woman's heart." - Josiah G. Holland

"Love me without fear / Trust me without questioning / Need me without demanding / Want me without restrictions / Accept me without change / Desire me without inhibitions." - Dick Sutphen

"There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness." - Nietzsche

"Love consists in this, that two solitudes protect and touch and greet each other." - Rainer Maria Rilke

"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved." -George Sands

"The most precious possession that ever comes, To a man in this world, Is a woman's heart."

- by Josiah G. Holland

"My love for you is a journey; Starting at forever, And ending at never."

- anonymous quotation

"You're nothing short of my everything." - Ralph Block

"All that you are, all that I owe to you, justifies my love." - Marquis de Lafayette

"Thou art to me a delicious torment." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"I tell you I love you every day for fear that tomorrow isn't another." - anonymous quotation

"There's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me." - Gretchen Kemp

"I never, till now, had a friend who could give me repose; all have disturbed me, and, whether for pleasure or pain, it was still disturbance. But peace overflows from your heart into mine." - Nathaniel Hawthorne, letter to Sophia Hawthorne

"She walks in beauty,

Like the night of cloudless climes and starry skies;

And all that's best of dark and bright

Meet in her aspect and her eyes."

- Byron

"We are each of us angels with only one wing. And we can only fly while embracing each other." - Lucian de Croszonza

"We lie in each other's arms eyes shut and fingers open and all the colors of the world pass through our bodies like strings of fire." - Marge Piercy

"Your words are my food, your breath my wine. You are everything to me." - Sarah Bernhardt

"I cannot exist without you. I am forgetful of everything but seeing you again. My life seems to stop there, I see no further. You have absorb'd me. I have a sensation at the present moment as though I were dissolving. I have been astonished that men could die martyrs for religion... I have shudder'd at it... I shudder no more. I could be martyr'd for my religion: Love is my religion. I could die for that. I could die for you. My creed is love, and you are its only tenet. You have ravish'd me away by a power I cannot resist." - letter written by John Keats

"The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart." - Helen Keller

"When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out." - Elizabeth Bowen

"You are like nobody since I love you." - Pablo Neruda

"There is no spectacle on earth more appealing than that of a beautiful woman in the act of cooking dinner for someone she loves." - Alice Adams

"The most powerful symptom of love is a tenderness which becomes at times almost insupportable." - Victor Hugo

"Love puts the fun in together, The sad in apart, The hope in tomorrow, The joy in the heart."

- Anonymous

"You don't love a woman because she's beautiful; she is beautiful because you love her." - Anonymous

"A light heart lives long." - William Shakespeare

"To be in love is merely to be in a state of perceptual anesthesia." - H.L. Mencken

"Once you have loved someone, you'd do anything in the world for them... except love them again." - Anonymous

"Love has the power of making you believe what you would normally treat with the deepest suspicion." - Mirabeau

"Three things can't be hidden: coughing, poverty, and love." - Yiddish proverb

"Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." - Mark Twain

"Grief can take care of itself, but to get the full value of joy, you must have somebody to divide it with." - Mark Twain

"I am in love - and, my God, it is the greatest thing that can happen to a man. I tell you, find a woman you can fall in love with. Do it. Let yourself fall in love. If you have not done so already, you are wasting your life." - D. H. Lawrence

"Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it." - Robert Mitchum

"All that you are, all that I owe to you, justifies my love." - Marquis de Lafayette

"Thou art to me a delicious torment." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"If you would be loved, love and be lovable." - Benjamin Franklin, "Poor Richard's Almanac," 1755

"Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness." - Oliver Wendell Holmes

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly." - Sam Keen

"You may only be one person to the world, but you may also be the world to one person." - anonymous quote

"Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit." - Peter Ustinov

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." - Lao Tzu

"It is love, not reason, that is stronger than death." - Thomas Mann

"When the one man loves the one woman and the one woman loves the one man, the very angels desert heaven and come and sit in the house and sing for joy." - Brahma Sutra

"A fool in love makes no sense to me.

I only think you are a fool

If you do not love."

- anonymous quote

"The most desired gift of love is not diamonds or roses or chocolate. It is focused attention." - Richard Warren

"A loving heart is the truest wisdom." - Charles Dickens

"True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist,

Nor can it be hidden where it truly does."

- anonymous quote

"A happy man marries the girl he loves; a happier man loves the girl he marries." - anonymous quote

"Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along." - Rumi

"Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the problem of human existence." - Erich Fromm

"The three hardest tasks in the world are neither physical feats nor intellectual achievements, but moral acts: 1) To return love for hate; 2) To include the excluded; and 3) To say 'I was wrong.'" - Ernst Heinrich Haeckel

"What will survive of us is love." - Philip Larkin


Kalo versi bahasa Indonesianya kayak gini….(sumber: blog nya Silly, Jun2008)

Cinta itu seperti kupu-kupu. Tambah dikejar, tambah lari… Tapi kalau dibiarkan terbang, dia akan datang di saat kamu tidak mengharapkannya..

Cinta dapat membuat kamu bahagia tapi sering juga bikin sedih… Cinta baru berharga kalau diberikan kepada seseorang yang menghargainya…. Jadi jangan terburu-buru, dan pilihlah yang terbaik.

Cinta bukan bagaimana menjadi pasangan yang “sempurna” bagi seseorang… Tapi bagaimana menemukan seseorang yang dapat membantumu menjadi dirimu sendiri. Dan karena itu kamu adalah sempurna!!!

Jangan pernah bilang “I love you kalau kamu tidak perduli… Jangan pernah membicarakan perasaan yang tidak pernah ada…. Jangan pernah menyentuh hidup seseorang kalau hal itu akan menghancurkan hatinya.

Jangan pernah menatap matanya kalau semua yang kamu lakukan hanya kebohongan…. Hal paling kejam yang seseorang lakukan kepada orang lain adalah membiarkannya jatuh cinta, sementara kamu tidak berniat untuk menangkapnya…

Kesedihan dan kerinduan hanya terasa selama yang kamu inginkan dan menyayat sedalam yang kamu izinkan… Yang berat ituuu… bukan bagaimana caranya menanggulangi kesedihan dan kerinduan itu, tapi bagaimana belajar darinya

Memang sakit melihat orang yang kamu cintai sedang berbahagia dengan orang lain,… tapi lebih sakit lagi kalau orang yang kamu cintai itu tidak berbahagia bersama kamu

Cinta akan menyakitkan ketika kamu berpisah dengan seseorang, lebih menyakitkan apabila kamu dilupakan oleh kekasihmu, tapi cinta akan lebih menyakitkan lagi apabila seseorang yang kamu sayangi tidak tahu apa yang sesungguhnya kamu rasakan.


Ahhh…. When I’m thinking about LOVE, it makes me feel blush… don’t you??
J

And for me…. LOVE is…

Ada sesuatu yang gak bisa diliat oleh mata, gak bisa didengar oleh telinga, tapi dirasakan oleh hati… itulah Cinta”

“Cinta itu pengorbanan – mengorbankan waktu, pikiran, tenaga, materi, dan hati utk orang yang kita cintai tapi perasaan puas dan ikhlas”

Hahahaha… sok Pujangga banget sih gue! :-p

Kalo ada yang mo nambahin pengertian soal Cinta menurut diri sendiri, silakan… komen yaaa…. J

Awal Juli yang Menyenangkan ^__^

Aaahhhh... awal bulan Juli ini menyenangkan sekaliii...
Apalagi kalo bukan kehidupan dikantor :-p
Kerjaan emang lagi ga banyak sejak 2 bulan ini, dan makin parah di bulan Juni
Sekali dalam sejarah kerja sbg Underwriter, tgl 30 Juni, hari terakhir dlm 1 bulan, bisa nyantei dari jam 6 sore, dan akhirnya bisa pulang jam 8 malem!! hohoho... dan mulai hari ini sampe Jumat ntr, bos pergi ke luar negeri utk training, kerjaan juga masih belom banyak. Jadi bisa pulang tenggo terus deh selama seminggu ini... Menyenangkan... ^__^

Akhirnya, tadi ikutan nonton film SEX & THE CITY deh di XXI PS ma temen-temen kantor
Ber-6 cewek semua! Ya iyalah... secara ni film cewek banget...!! Kayaknya cowok2 yg ada di studio itu terpaksa or penasaran aja ma film nya..
Sebenernya gue ga ngikutin drama seri tv nya, cuma nonton beberapa kali aja. Jadi ga gitu ngerti awal nontonnya, cuma familiar aja ma tokoh2nya.
Ahhh... ni film! bener2 cocok buat gue!
LOVE... for Single in the big city! LOL
tapi yaaa... ceritanya sih bule banget yeeee... hehehe...
Its Hard being single, but its Fun! ^__^

Oiya, hari ini jadi berasa lagi.... being single emang berat yaaaa....
Soalnya, jadi bahan gosip aja dikantor, dimana-mana deh! Gosipnya ada2 aja... deket ma si A, digosipin, ga deket ma siapa2 digosipin juga... Trus dijodoh2in ma si B, jadi males banget deh...
Kenapa sih orang2 ga bisa liat gue sebagai GUE??! Kenapa sih... harus memaksakan kehendak? krn yg nge-gosip & ng-jodoh2in gitu rata2 udh pd berkeluarga sih... kayak ga ngerti aja... Love...You can't forced it! Just follow the flow... Ne? am i wrong???

Ok, next posting must be about L.O.V.E.....

Yaelah...!!

Senin, 23 Juni

Masuk kerja dgn kondisi mata sembab agak merah dan wajah putih sedikit pucet LOL

*kesannya abis nangis semaleman*

padahal krn abis sakit mata, efek nya masih keliatan bgt hari ini, tapi secara udah akhir bulan gitu.. ga enak bgt kalo harus ga masuk alesa sakit! lagian bulan ini udh ga masuk kerja 2 hr, 1 cuti... dan pas cuti sakit pulak! dan 1 hr emang beneran sakit.. masa' harus ga masuk lagi krn sakit mata??! Ga enak bgt... gue kan bukan type orang yg seneng bolos2 kerja... :-D

Akhirnya sedikit temen tau kalo gue baru abis sakit mata

yang ada seharian itu gue di kucilkan.. di intimidasi... ma yg laen2 nya krn takut ketularan.. walo sambil becanda2 tapi makin sore makin banyak, dan capek juga jadinyaa...

trus... bete dong ma cowok kurus menyebalkan itu!! kenapa sih dia? nyuekin gue terus sekarang... sms ga dibales, email apalagi!! ya udah... gue jadi males deh nanggepin dia juga. cuekin aja ah...!! capek!! Yang ada pulang kerja jadi sedih... bgt... huhuhu... *akhir2 ini sering*

tapi gitu nyampe depan rumah.. ada sesuatu yg aneh!! ya ampun!! ternyata depan rumah dan jalanan sepanjang rumah sampe mesjid terdekat tiba2 malem itu berubah jadi pasar malam dadakan!! LOL aneh bgt!! kata bokap, itu rombongan pedagang pasar malam keliling dari kecamatan hahaha... apa mungkin krn memperingati HUT Jakarta?? gatau deh.. tapi yg jelas, ada jual Kerak Telor...!! :-D


Selasa, 24 Juni

Akhir2 ini banyak gosip di kantor... maksudnya gosip soal manajemen dikantor yg lagi membingungkan. Tapi diluar kapasitas kita sih.. secara kita cuma semut pekerja biasa.. hahaha.. cuma berharap mulai bulan depan kehidupan dikantor much much better. Amin...

Hari ini sih berjalan seperti biasa.. cuma pas pulang kerja aja rada bingung. Karena ada demo mahasiswa di depan kampus Atma, Semanggi. Sampe bakar2 mobil polisi segala! Wah... info dikasi tau mami by phone, ternyata pas nanya temen2 bener bgt kalo di semanggi-benhil lagi ada keramaian demo yg rusuh dan itu demo pindahan dari demo didepan DPR/MRP. Wahh... kebayang perjalanan pulang yg susah jadinya.. tapi nekat turun aja deh.. gatau harus gimana, tapi pas keluar kantor, banyaaaaakk.. bgt orang dipinggir jalan maupun ditengah (dijalur tengah sudirman) nunggu kendaraan, sementara jalanan sepi... dan tiba2 susana berasa seperti scene di film The Happening... Banayk orang terpaku diem dipinggir jalan, jalana sepi ga ada kendaraan, dan *zing....* angin berhembus pelan2 jadi rada mencekam hahaha.. setelah berpikir, kayaknya bakal susah dapet kendaraan menuju rumah, akhirnya memutuskan utk nyebrang jembatan planningnya mo naik bis kearah blok m, trus nyambung dari blok m kerumah gitu.. tapiii... perut laper sore2 gitu.. akhirnya nongkrong bentar makan somay didepan kantor, dan setelah bayar.. akhirnya ada kopaja yg lewat kearah komdak, yatta! langsung naik, dan ternayat harus muter di TVRI senayan.. krn semanggi kan ditutup berikade polisi. yaaa.. jadi lama... sempet ngintip keadaan depan kampus atma dari atas jembatan semanggi... sepi... jalanan diblok polisi, dan ada 1 mobil yg masih terbakar dari kejauhan.. ahh.. jakarta yg mengerikan...>_<

akhirnya sampe rumah hampir 2jam perjalanan nyambung 4 kendaraan dan berasa capeekk... bgt! duh.. jgn sering2 deh demo2 dihari kerja sore2 dan ditengah kota banyak perkantoran gitu... merepotkan sekali... udh pusing ma kerjaan... pusing juga mikirin pulang kerumah... cape deh...

Rabu, 25 Juni

Hari ini... Salary time :-) tapi seperti biasa... cuma lewat doang kayaknya! setelah bayar tagihan-tagihan kartu, telpon, tv astro, sumbangan dikator, dll saldo mengkhawatirkan lagi hiksss... bener2 gaji tuh cuma numpang lewat doang direkening LOL

Hari ini makin santer gosip-gosip kepemilikan saham perusahaan dan kekhawatiran nasib karyawan, kepastian dari semua gosip dan tebak2 masa depan akan terjawab hari jumat nanti. Hmm... hari Jumat jadi terasa lamaaaaaa.... penasaran.. apa yg akan terjadi ya mulai bulan depan? hmmm... *pray*

oiya, hari ini kok gue berasa ga enak body bgt yaa... pagi2 perjalanan kekantor aja eneg bin pusing! padahl udh sarapan dirumah, dan pas pulang juga gitu.. aneh bgt! apakah gue masuk angin?? tapi kenapa mata sebelah kanan gue berasa sedikit gatel dan perih lagi ya? huhuhu... ya Tuhan, jangan sampe kena penyakit2 aneh lagi...

Oiyaa... bulan ini, dimulai arisan ma temen2 kantor! hohoho.. nasib ga berpihak ma gue, yg dapet temen gue yg emang ngarep sih dapet duluan.

Trus, koordinator gue resign per hari ini, perpisahan nya cuma ngumpul diruang meeting bentar tadi sore, trsu... gue beneran benci ma cowok ittuu...!! huhuhuu... kenapa sih geu mesti jelous liat dia ngobrol ma cewek lain?? padahal gue buklan typical orang yg kayak gitu! *ga yakin sih..* tapi benran.. apa mungkin krn akhir2 ini gue ma dia lagi saling cuek2n yaa... tapi salahnya dimana coba?? hahaha... gak jelas!! hubungan yg serba ga jelas...>_<>

Saturday morning...

Bangun pagi, panik!! krn mata perih dan berair.. Iyadaaaaaaaa...!!! ternyata ketularan juga sakit mat! huhuhuu... Berawal dari nyokap sakit mata sejak 2 hari lalu, trus menular ke bokap & banag kemarin sampe ga masuk kerja. Dengan nyantei nya pas bokap tanya tadi malem "kamu ketularan sakit mata juga ga?" gue jawab "gak" kata bokap "ya udh, prepare obat tetes mata deh.. ati2 ketularan" dan ternyata pagi ini....... OMG!! i feel so.. sick! huhuhu.. ga bisa melihat dgn jelas, mata sakit, bengkak, merah, berair dan menyedihkan... huhuu...
mana ntr siang harusnya pergi gath ke Sencity lagi.. ketemuan temen2 lama IJ yg kebetulan yg jauh2 pun pd dateng.. uwaaaaaa... i hate myself.. >_<

Starto...!!

Well... its kinda weid to make my own blog nowadays...
but i must separated my fandom life with my real lifa stry
so... Its should be my... treasure to have a new blog :-)
Yoroshiku.. ^___^

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